Wednesday, May 9, 2012

WWW...I'm baaack!

Oh how I missed, no actually that's not right. No, I hate you WWW.  You wanna know why? Cuz this mama bear is WEAK.  And fessing up to my weaknesses, my failures, this is not my favorite thing. 

Alas, I'm here, called out in all of my 7 weeks of laziness glory by the lovely and oh-so-correct Josie.  Busy much? Why yes, thank you.  Six month old twins.  Check.  First month back at work. Check. Illnesses running rampant through our house. Check. I hate daycare.

All of this is absolutely no excuse to forget about me (at least not a good excuse...).  As much as I hate the accountability sometimes, I really need it.  So here's a very quick recap (mama's tired and it's my night to be on baby duty...with a son who is rocking out a not-so-fun cough and some serious diarrhea, it's not going to be fun for either of us) of what I've been up to.

1. I have some health issues.  Shocker, right?  Take a look up at my blog summary and you'll get a brief picture, but it gets better.  Now they're thinking no on the Hashimoto's. Yes on Grave's disease.  This means pills, maybe surgery...maybe some radiation.  Either way, it's me thinking about my health again and I hate that.  I've also been on a wild goose chase trying to figure out what's going on with my very elevated liver enzymes.  Now they're thinking maybe related to the Grave's?  Lots of tests and scans later, they're not sure.  Plain and simple.

2. My son isn't sleeping.  We did CIO and broke the binky habit about a month ago and after four days of rough bedtimes, naps, and middle of the nights, he started sleeping! And sleeping well!  He was happier, we were happier.  All was right in the world.  Not and easy decision, but so, so right for us in the end.  Well, about two weeks later, he started teething.  Up a lot, and I couldn't justify CIO when he was in pain.  Then about a week later, he got a horrific diaper rash.  Again, up all night (now pooing three times per night??!?! what IS this???) and no CIO for a baby in pain!  Then he got sick- Hand, Foot, and Mouth.  No CIO.  Then the diaper rash came back and the diarrhea started.  That's where we're at. The tough part is him not having a binky. That was a tough habit to break and I struggled to decide whether I should give it back to him when he was in pain/sick, but decided that making him break the habit again was just as cruel.  And it turns out, he's sick all the time.  Sad, but true now.  So it's really hard to soothe him in the middle of the night now.  Especially when he's sick :(

3. I did a juice fast.  This one relates back to #1.  I needed to cleanse. I needed to detox, try to get a little self-healing going.  I was hoping it would help my liver.  Maybe even my thyroid.  I fasted for 4 days!  It was great! I was hungry the first day, but then settled in and it really helped me understand "hunger" and how my mind is responding much more than my body.  It was such a good experience.  I would have loved to go a little longer, but life got in the way and I felt good about 4 days. I'm sure I'll do it again someday, but I was pleased with the 8 pounds I lost in 4 days.

4. I put seven of those pounds back on within one week of stopping the fast.  However, I started to lose a little bit again and I'm back down to within two pounds of my low fasting weight.  I'm doing a much better job of eating healthy now after my fast and I don't crave the sweets as bad as I used to!

5. I stopped exercising when I stopped sleeping. Period.  The health stuff wasn't helping- with the Grave's my resting heart rate was rocking out at around 95bpm, yikes. I was an athlete, my resting heart rate used to be around 45, and more recently around 55. 95 is bad.  Very bad. And without the sleep, I'm in super paranoid mode about getting sick.  I've already gotten sick twice since we started daycare about 3 weeks ago and it's no fun to be sick with two kids.  I'm torn about starting back up again. I want to feel good and lose weight, but I want to avoid illness and not push my body too hard.  Three broken hours of sleep isn't condusive to working out, or "health" in general.

6. I started birth control today!  Yes, I've been trying to start the pill for about 3 months now.  I am deathly afraid of my endometriosis running rampant again and I was starting to feel more and more twinges, cramps, and that all too familiar upset stomach after I weaned from pumping about a month and a half ago.  I wasn't allowed to start until I got more answers about my liver tests.  I finally got the go ahead from the liver specialist with the caveat that I have to be seen every 3 months.  I'll take it at this point.

Ok, there you have it. Here's the stats and cheers to starting back up again. Thanks Josey!

Starting Weight: 205
Last Week's Weight: 203
Current Weight: 200.4
Goal Weight: 180

Starting BMI: 27
Last Week's BMI: 26.8
Current BMI: 26.4

1. Reiterate my goal and where I stand in reference to this goal:
I've got about 20 pounds to go and I'm feeling a little stuck with the lack of exercise and my concern about the health stuff.  I'm trying to eat healthier so that's hopefully going to help inch me closer.

2. Discuss what I am going to do to achieve my goals:

Progress on last week's activities:

No working out.
Eating much, much better!
Bought a great water bottle and have filled it up and finished it at work every day this week!

On-going Life Style Goals:
Drink water all day long!
Don't give up on the health stuff, keep going to appointments and get it figured out!

3. Post a (reasonably healthy) recipe that I've tried, a cooking tip, a new idea for working out for people to try, a photo update of my weight loss, or anything else I feel like sharing.

When you're hungry, stop to think about what sounds good.  If only certain (unhealthy) foods sound good, you're probably not that hungry. Try some water.  When you're really hungry, pretty much anything sounds good (think nuts, lettuce, spinach...anything). 


  1. Great to see that Josey's little blurb helped to get you back to WWW! :) Sorry to hear about the health issues and lack of sleep. Wow, I am very impressed by the juice cleanse! How you did it with twins and little sleep, I can't even imagine! And great progress by the way! I look forward to following. Be sure to always remember take care of you!! :)

  2. Wow - I had never heard of Grave's until my new job, and one of my coworkers was diagnosed with it a couple of years ago. I hope you figure out answers/treatment soon.

    Poor, poor baby. It sucks to be sick. :(

    It is definitely hard to find the balance of sleep/working out/staying healthy. I've found that I have to cut my old workouts in half and be happy that I've done SOMETHING. It keeps me from overexerting and getting sick, but it also keeps me moving.

    Welcome back!

  3. First off, sorry for being absent for so long! I don't have the extra baby and work to eat up all my time, but I am really bad at internet-y things these days!! So the very fact you're still blogging amazes me :)

    Secondly, that sucks about your health issues but great you're back on birth control at least! I'm seeing a gynaecologist next month to discuss this as I'm not allowed various things (like the pill) and I've been nauseous since Christmas (which is a classic sign of my Endo returning but a nightmare after the hell of HG!) so I totally get how sucky it is to have health issues crop up so soon after pregnancy, especially a difficult pregnancy.

    I do hope you get some answers soon, and I also hope you all get better quickly. I know daycare is a sure way to have permanent colds and things :( and we had the same thing with Oscar's sleeping, finally getting him to sleep through for all of about 4 days before teething started and he hasn't slept through since! No wonder you're exhausted xx