The offspring are doing well. They're starting to discover their voices a little more nowadays- the crying has increased a bit. Somehow our children have discovered also that we will hold them when they cry and they tend to enjoy this. :) They will be super pissed, totally inconsolable in their cribs, and then we pick them up and they're happy as can be. Not easy when there's two of them and only one person to hold them...but it works when both B and I are there or when we have help. I know you can't spoil a newborn, but it sorta feels like it. I kind of want them to get used to not being held cuz it just won't happen all the time if both are unhappy. That sounds awful, but it's the truth. Sad sad sad. What to do?
They're still growing well it seems. We have their one month check up next Wednesday. I can't believe the twins will be a month old on Tuesday!! That's crazy- time is flying by! The past month hasn't been all easy, but I absolutely know I'm going to miss this phase. This tiny baby wanting to be held and being super happy in my arms phase. I tear up just thinking about it- I know that they'll get to a point when either a) holding won't make them feel better or b) they outgrow it and want to be down running around more than being held. I know there are amazing parts to that phase as well, but I'll miss this feeling. I love that I can make them happy so easily sometimes.
Caleb's bubba bits are getting better. He wasn't happy for the first couple of days. I've never seen a baby cry so hard as the first time our little dude went to the bathroom after the snipping... it was awful. I cried right along with him as he gripped my finger so tight he had white knuckles. I don't like thinking about that. But he's doing much better- it seems to not have phased him much.
Gracie is still grunting away. She still vomits more than I think she should and seems just so terribly uncomfortable a lot of the time. I know little lady has some wicked tummy trouble...I just want to make it go away. Hopefully she grows out of that soon.
Still exclusively pumping- no formula. I got clogged ducts last week that were horrendously painful. Took almost two days for them to clear up- had to do a lot of heating pads, hand expression, and finally got Caleb to latch on and tackle the problem himself. That's what did it! I get them both to practice latching once or twice a day, but haven't seen much progress. I'm thinking we're going to be exclusively pumping for the long haul. We were hoping they were just too little to latch or stay awake while breastfeeding- but now they've gotten so used to the bottle, I don't know if there's any hope for us. Plus, I'll be going back to work anyway. But I still don't love having to pump after every feed. It takes me an hour and a half to finish the whole feeding/pumping process each time. Which is brutal when they want to eat every two hours (from the start of the feed), so I only get about 30 minutes "off" sometimes. But they eat every 3 hours mostly, so that's good. Trying to get them to do one 4 hour stretch at night, unsuccessfully thus far.
Oh- B and I got to get away for a little bit a couple of times now. My mom has come over to help us and let us sneak away in between feedings (pumpings). She's taken full feedings by herself several times which has been a REAL lifesaver for us. So B and I actually went and got some sushi and went to play a few slots at a casino near our house the other day!!! It was awesome to hang with him for a bit- that's been the hardest part for me, missing my B. We see eachother all the time since he's home from work, but being on baby duty makes seeing eachother not exactly "quality time". It was a great three hours! But of course, we both missed the twins :)
I'm going to try to get out for a walk most days now that I'm feeling a little more comfortable keeping the babies awake. We were so paranoid about their "calorie burning" there for a while...but just getting out of the house for a few minutes makes ALL the difference. I get wicked stir crazy. I'd like to start running again as soon as I'm cleared for it. I don't want to damage my recovery by starting too soon, but I feel pretty good and I seriously miss working out. It's been forever- an entire year honestly. I need it. I go back to see my OB this coming Wednesday...which won't be a full 6 weeks, but they kept telling me how awesome my body was handling the c-section and how I was recovering super fast. She might clear me then. I hope so!
And finally, the cutest twins you've ever seen (I may be slightly biased...but go with it):
|I mean, he was totally content sleeping on this tree trunk in our front yard...|
|And because my mom would die if I didn't add it...baby yawn!|