I really need to get to bed but I wanted to commemorate the 12 week mark. We're having a rough go around here right now. Caleb has a staff infection in his eye that's gotten worse. B is coming down with something, I think the flu, so he isn't able to help with feedings- brutal to do this alone by the way. And little Gracie seems to be having some worse-than-usual tummy trouble (i hope hope hope she's not getting sick).
But they're also smiling a lot more. And swatting at their toys more. And I can see that they really really want to grab things, but they can't yet and they get frustrated and it's totally cute.
The cooing is pretty stellar, too. :)
Here are some pics of the last week:
|Look at that sore eye :(|
Ps- Had my first cycle since I got knocked up at the doctor's office. Not cool- I thought I'd get a little more time since I'm still exclusively pumping- no go. But it's awesome that I'm still able to exclusively pump, even with my ginormous son eating 8 or 9 ounces in a feeding from time to time. Yikes. He's already almost 15lbs! Not even three months old!
Pss- Pumping sucks. As soon as I finally get the babies down I have to hook up to a machine for 20 minutes- which doesn't really feel as relaxing as it may seem! :(
Psss- I'm so tired. I really appreciate the helpful tips on my last post about the soothing techniques- we're using the 5 s's a lot- but not always. It helps calm them down, but won't get them to sleep. I make sure to put them down between every feeding when I notice their sleep cues- I'm not sure if I'm trying to get them to sleep too much or if I'm too late....but they have the hardest time staying asleep (and sometimes falling asleep). They're addicted to their binkies now which sucks cuz they spit them out every 4 minutes...ugh. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. And they WON'T go to bed (and stay asleep) before 10pm. They totally fight it and I'm not ready to do CIO or anything yet so it's been a bit of a mess. We don't have a great bed time routine, maybe that's the problem. But they don't like baths, so I can't use that. What else can I do? And should I do it at the time they're actually going to sleep, or when I want them to go to sleep?
Psssssss- I'm so totally in love with these tiny little creatures! I can't stand how blessed we are, and how lucky I feel. I keep remembering back when we weren't sure we'd ever get here. When I get super tired of pumping or really overwhelmed, I think of Petri- of our journey. And I think of those of you who are still in it. It's not fair- none of it, really. The guilt I feel for being overwhelmed, the fact that it was so hard to get here- which contributes to these difficult feelings I have now...and the face that it happened for us but hasn't happened for so many wonderful men and women who have helped me so much through this. It's like I don't feel worthy... I guess I'm just a mess.