I mean, I'm either optimistic or pessimistic it seems. Cautious doesn't really come into play. But right now, I'm feeling optimistic! We got an 84!!!! 84!!! You blew 12 out of the water P & D! I'm so proud :)
The nurse said that we need to be "cautiously optimistic" because that number is still ridiculously too low. It appropriately doubled, and actually more than doubled. Almost tripled. But they don't feel good about an 84 at 18dpo. I mean, do you feel good about an 84 at 18dpo? Let's be honest. Not so much. But c'mon, I'm still pregnant, y'all!
I feel it too. I went out for yogurt today with some coworkers and had to sit outside because there weren't any tables left. It was blazingly hot and I felt like I was going to pass out! Then the nausea set in and I was done for. I just got up and went inside. Momma needs her Air Conditioning! Everytime I feel nauseous I get so excited. Although it could be from the progesterone, at this point with an 84 HCG level, I'm pregnant. SO I'm blaming it on that! :)
I have to go back in on Wednesday to see what happens. I really want to see a tripled number, so we can start to feel like this may happen instead of just hearing the pity in our nurses' voices. If it goes up high enough, will they start having hope for us? Will they maybe consider this a real possibility? I asked her if she'd ever seen this actually happen, with numbers so low. She said she couldn't say...it was too hard to tell. That doesn't even make sense! Basically, "no honey, but keep on truckin". Eh, there are some things that doctors don't know; can't know. I've always been good at that- let's shock the doctors again. C'mon little ones, let's make them wonder! Let's be the success story that I've been looking for. We don't need anyone else to do it, just us.
Pray for over 200...but I'll take anything over 168 :)