I'm just so ansy. UUUUGH. But it will be here shortly. Thursday. Oh Thursday.
B and I went down to my parents house tonight for dinner and to see the family. My niece and nephew are so friggin cute...little E looked up at B with his big blue eyes and begged in a way too high pitched voice: "Will you play hide and seek with me???"
There is no resistance to such pleas.
I got to talk about the "what ifs" today with the family, one of my favorite things to do. It's one thing to day dream all day long alone about what we'll do if we actually get and stay pregnant...but talking about it is just so lovely. Even if it doesn't happen this time, it's so nice to think that maybe, just maybe.
Have I mentioned that B will be going out of town a few days after we find out the "outcome" of this cycle... for a whole week? Yeah, One Day's not too happy. But I'm really proud of him for being such a big shot and all that our company needs to send him across the country, so I guess I'll be fine. But if it's a not so good outcome I'll be super sad he's leaving me. And if it's a good outcome I"ll be super sad he's leaving me. Woops, sorry B. You have to deal with the wrath no matter what. ;)
Today I'm feeling pretty normal. I had a couple of twinges earlier, and maybe a teensy bit of a headache/nausea for like 2 minutes when I was out grocery shopping. Nothing really to speak of. The ladies are sore, but I'm on so much progesterone and estrogen that my body is convinced it's preggo even if it's not...so there's no point.
ps- I got a facial yesterday and the woman actually took a needle to my face. I have red spots all over my face now where she was "digging for dirt" or something. Gross. Apparently I will be incredibly grateful I did this in a day or two. I friggin better be. If these red spots are still on my face in a day or two I'm marching my ass right down there to show her just how "maybe pregnant" I can really be.
Thank you for stopping by my blog. I read your whole story--it was absolutely heartbreaking. I am so incredibly sorry you had to deal with that. I am a touch hormonal, but it had my in tears.
ReplyDeleteI am hoping and praying (which is rare, the prayer thing) that this is your cycle. That you get a positive and AVOID BETA HELL and end up with one--or 2 or 3!--perfectly healthy little one in about 37 weeks.
(And I won't be taking any methotrexate unless I see a sac in my tube myself.)
My fingers and toes are crossed for you!!!!!
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